Introspection Day

Turning a year older is not much fun if you start thinking about how old you are and how much more you could’ve done in the years past. I realized this the hard way yesterday, when I turned 24 and I realized that I am trudging along on the long road of life and there’re no detours in sight. Just before sleeping yesterday, I was talking to a dear friend of mine over the phone (she stays in Chattisgarh) and we were discussing random stuff and all of a sudden, it hit me that I am not really where I wanted to be at this point in life.

It’s been a pessimistic week for me so far, with too much work to do and too little time to do it in, and yesterday in particular was such a terribly hectic day that it was only when people smeared my face with some yummy chocolate cake that I forced myself to relax a bit and smile.

Most of the questions that people tend to ask themselves in such a mood as I am in, are kindaΒ clichΓ©d and would be on the lines of, “Where is my life headed?” and “Why am I here?”

But my questions went one step higher and I began questioning my attitude to life, my decisions in the past, my plans for the next few years and in general, the direction I am looking at, and to my surprise, I realized that I had answers to none of them! πŸ˜€

I guess this happens to everyone of us, and the best way to get over it is to ignore it and get on with life. I decided to face this head-on and I have challenged myself to find the answers soon! All this thought process took approximately forty-seven seconds and I slept soon after. I had this strong urge to share this with all of you, just to vent it all out. Sorry! πŸ˜€

Oh, by the way, I called up Vodafone customer care yesterday and this conversation with the customer care executive is absolute gold. It went thus:

Me: Hi, my international calling is barred for some reason.

Vodafone Jerk: Hi sir, thank you for calling Vodafone.

Me: Yeah, yeah, my international calling has stopped.

Vodafone Jerk: I will definitely look into that problem sir. First could you please tell me your 10-digit mobile phone number and your full name?

Me: My number is xxxxx-xxxxx and my name is Nikhil Kumar.

Vodafone Jerk: Hi Mr. Kumar, Vodafone wishes you a very happy birthday!

Me (Pleasantly surprised): Why, thank you. That’s sweet of you.

Vodafone Jerk: You’re welcome sir. Now, you said your international calling has been barred?

Me: Yes!

Vodafone Jerk: Ok sir, but first, I need to confirm a few details about your account for security reasons.

Me: Sigh, ok go ahead.

Vodafone Jerk: Mr. Kumar, can you please confirm your date of birth?

———–

Cheers! πŸ˜€

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66 thoughts on “Introspection Day

  1. @ Nikhil:

    Two things. One is something I told Rambler who is 26 – look up the word ‘quarter life crisis’. Yes, now there is a term for the malaise.

    Two is this song. Nobody writes it like them any more (no umbrella-ella-ella-eh-eh this).

  2. Wish you a very happy birthday Nikhil. Its good to hear the number 24! You still have a very long way to go as I do!
    And in the 7 point happenings’ list, i guess the last point can make a difference to planet earth if you think the first 6 didnt!

  3. @Shefaly
    Wonderful song! Thanks! I’d heard it before a long time ago, and it made me smile! πŸ˜€
    Quarter-Life Crisis… I wouldn’t term what I’m going thro that harshly… I’d say a ‘temporary lack of focus’…! πŸ˜€
    The ‘confession’ does make one think, doesn’t it? Gilmour in all his glory! Only a few people age gracefully! πŸ™‚

    @Raji
    Oh really! Wow!! If its already past, then belated Happy Birthday!! πŸ˜€
    If not, then in advance, Happy Birthday!! πŸ˜€
    When is it??

    @Chetan
    Thanks a lot, man! πŸ™‚
    Yeah, we do have a long way to go still… πŸ™‚

  4. I thought only girls had a problem with increasing numbers related to age πŸ˜€ πŸ˜€ πŸ˜€

    well…i’m th last person on earth to make any kind of a valid comment to this post…because i never seem to have any answers for them either πŸ˜€ I stopped hunting for it, but still live in defiance to the get-along-with-life attitude…i have no idea wot i’m doin!! 😐

    cheer up, nikhil!! yu’re 24 yrs young!!

  5. @Scorpria
    ’24 years Young’…!! :d
    Nice thought! Thanks! πŸ™‚
    It’ll take me some time to get back to my normal indifference… Bear with me! πŸ˜€

  6. Time is gonna fly no matter what one thinks or one desires .. So we just have to accept the challenge and fight on always .. Be a puppet and dance with the threads attached to you.. Now who controls the threads, it’s a mystery !! .. Either you call it GOd, Super Power, Luck, Destiny, Sincerity, Dedication or Hard work, it’s upto you ..

    But the conversation with the customer representative was hillarious to the core .. They are getting funnier day by day ..

  7. Only 24? Somehow I thought you were about 27-28 and I think it’s a big leap from 24 to a few years later. I mean in terms of change. People seem to suddenly focus by around 28 so I guess it’s okay for you to feel the way you do at 24! If at 28 you are feeling like this, I would worry! πŸ™‚
    Anyway as to where your life is headed, it suddenly gets glued together. Happened with me. At 24 I was so confused! I had started working, a relationship was not working out, my boss was harassing me, I wanted to have fun but still work long hours to get that promotion, I was unhappy with my looks, my life, hated staying alone in a room in Mumbai (working woman’s hostel) but hated staying at home….it was quite a time! But by 27 I knew what I wanted and I got it!

  8. Ha…ha…ha…. ROFL! πŸ˜€ πŸ˜€ i think i can write a looooong comment on the interoscpection that you are haing but since you have got quite a lot of insight i will spare you πŸ™‚ πŸ˜›

  9. hahaha, thats a funny one…. seems like Vodafone guys are sticking right to the book and not using their common sense.

    πŸ˜€

    You are younger than me??? 😦 (Its couple of months, but still)
    Now I am sad.

  10. Believe me, with each birthday, philosophy clouds your mind.. Birthdays to me, are fun as long as its someone else’s.. Mine, I am rather quiet about, hoping that since they didn’t remember my birthday, they won’t remember my age, and I can continue to be 25 on my travel ticket & give a sheepish grin at the TT saying, “Someone else booked it.. I must look 25! :-)” until I have wrinkes on my face! Oh No! The image is scary enough already!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    So.. this is supposed to be a “cheer-up” message! Am hoping it helped πŸ˜€

  11. @ Nikhil:

    It is not a harsh term; that it is a collective term was meant to suggest that you are not alone in feeling this way at your age. Many do (as Nita also mentions). πŸ™‚ And most manage to survive. Besides if all questions are answered, isn’t it, like, time to quit?

    As for the song, I should probably have left this one instead (I do listen to the lyrics, a lot more than anyone should, I think):

    Cheer up. πŸ™‚

  12. The introspection thingie happens to me all the time and I usually forget about it a few days later πŸ˜€
    The vodafone conv was absolute gold! LOL.

  13. U r jus 24, dont worry, you will get used to these kinda feelings by the time ur 27 and even stop thinking abt this πŸ˜€ (Like Nita, even I was under the impression that u were 27-28, thats my age!)

    Btw, the vodafone conversation left me giggling even in my meetings today at work πŸ˜€ !!!

  14. Just 24 and thinking this much Mr. Yo Yo???? Chuck it life is about enjoying…and am so glad that these thoughts took just 47 seconds of your life πŸ˜€

    That conversation for sure is priceless, I was actually ROFLing.

    Age of automated replies & questions…such is life πŸ™‚

  15. Hey you are 24 and you saying this!!! I would kill to be that age now! πŸ˜‰
    Those questions I guess we all ask ourselves all the time! I have not gotten the answers to any! I am way older than you and have been trying to find the answers for that many extra years πŸ™‚ Feel young enough now πŸ˜€ Well, anyways you make me feel old!
    And 47 secs got a blog entry…I keep asking all this all the time!! πŸ™‚
    The vodafone conversation! lol! lmao!! πŸ™‚

  16. hi.. nice blog u ve.. guess many of us r going the “philosophical” way on our b’days! since last few months- whoevr i wish a happy b’day rumble abt the same thing- “search the purpose”.. neway- u write v. well.. n the vodafone convstn- πŸ˜€

  17. You growing older by the day happens even if you forbid it from happening. Though its unfortunate, i feel that how young you are at heart matters and it could even defy your body’s age if you choose to be so. Valuable introspection indeed!

  18. Be happy as long as you grow. and THIS TOO SHALL PASS buddy….
    stopp questioning the why of it of life, and just look forward much to the when of life????

    SOmetimes its hard, but its true, there are no answers at times and accepting the no answer is the answer..

  19. sometimes i feel why could we just be a child of 9 years always..no tensions nothing..
    πŸ˜›
    and that conversation is funny πŸ˜›
    he he..what was ur reply by the way πŸ˜›

    many more happy returns of the day πŸ™‚

  20. Why do I always feel the way you felt on the night of your 24th birthday?

    Did that Vodafone thing actually happen?

    You know what I do – I tell him I’m Kris Bass, my number is xxxxx-xxxxx, My DOB is xx-xx-19xx and my address is (…). That really eases the tension at either end.

  21. Oh boy introspection sucks. Talking to yourself is the hardest thing. I tried it and ended up in a fight with myself 😦

  22. @Dinu
    Oh yeah! It was!

    @Aparna
    LOL…!!
    I’m not sure you’re laughing at my helplessness or my vodafone call!
    And that cheer-up message worked wonders! I’ll remember it the next time I have to buy a ticket!

    @Pritiahuja
    Welcome to MirrorCracked!
    Vedaphone? What’s that?

    @Soham
    Thanks man… I need to do some serious ignoring when these questions arise inside me!!

    @Chailey
    Welcome to MirrorCracked!
    Thanks for the wishes! 24 is actually just 26 short of 50..!! Yikes!!

    @Nita
    LOL… Thanks!! πŸ™‚
    And I think I’ll take a couple more years to actually realize what I wanna do in life and hopefully I’ll stick to it!
    You thought I was 27!?

    @Vijay
    Oh yeah, perfect mastercard ad!

    @Sakhi
    I think my insight is suffering from astigmatism right now! So, please go ahead and write that looooooong comment!

    @Xylene
    LOL… Why are you sad???

    @Priya
    On the contrary, it did!

    @Shefaly
    Somehow, I think bon jovi doesn’t quite have the same effect on my mood as roger waters has!
    It’s a lovely song nonetheless, but I don’t know, the fact that he’s strumming the guitar in that haunting tune makes me shudder!

    @Lively
    What introspection!? πŸ˜‰

    @Dinesh Babu
    30?????? Waaah!! I’m just 6 years away!! OMG!!!

    @Vimal
    LOL… yeah, i’ll get over it soon!

    @Smita
    LOL… yeah! Thank god I didn’t waste more than 47 secs on this!

    @Apar
    Hehehehehe!!! Nothing to say!

    @Matangi
    Oh no! You mean to say I’m predictable! Damn! I need to do something about it!!
    Welcome to MirrorCracked, btw!

    @Su
    I guess so, man! 18 till I die, eh?

    @Barath
    Yeah! You’re absolutely right! This too shall pass!

    @Arvind
    Thanks man! I replied to that jerk saying that he just wished me! So he went on to confirm my email ID!

    @Kris Bass
    LOL… That sounds like a decent idea!

    @RJ
    Maybe you’re right!

    @Vishesh
    LOL…

    @Che
    Hehehe!! Fight? No, I have the WWE Championship matched up here in my head!
    Pssst, I always win!

  23. One would think u got inspired by ur friend to introspect!! and in my view “(she stays in Chattisgarh)” is totally irrelevant and unnecessary information in context to the post.
    And dont worry it was just the sleep talking. 47 seconds is exactly how long ur serious and introspective mood can last!! Dont tell me u r still pondering!!!! I think the weekend will cure you.

  24. Nik, that vodafone conversation is ridiculous! hahahahhaha…. what was your reaction to that???

    2nd, of course you must know you are not the chosen one, to feel such things and to have no answers to your own questions… of course, if you had the answers, you would not have questioned them in the first place… that’s the fun about discovering life as it comes, if you already knew it all – where would be the fun? and then, we wont get to read the tales of ur adventures either…!!

  25. @Reema
    Oh, that chattisgarh part was absolutely vital to the article!! πŸ˜€
    And yeah, I know the mood won’t last… it’ll take a few days πŸ˜€

    @Shiwuz
    My response to the vodafone customer care was ten seconds of silence and then, “You just wished me!” He then went on to confirm my email ID!! πŸ˜€
    And you’re absolutely true… Some questions in life are best left unanswered and discovered as we go along… πŸ˜€
    Thanks! πŸ˜€

  26. “I am not really where I wanted to be at this point in life” – says it all.

    We are kind of entangled in the fabric of life. Rat race or some other cliche.

    If you ever feel like then do read quotes in my blog, not complete but still they say a lot abt philosophy of life.

    Never mind, I talk nonsense sometime.

  27. haha………..this customer care guys suck man………
    By the way don’t bother about future yar………..just enjoy as much as u can with what u have today…………..donno wat happens in future……….as u metioned earlier we may see the end of days……

  28. 1. Happy Birthday! πŸ™‚
    2. “Throw off the bow lines, sail away from the harbour, catch the trade winds in your sails… Explore, Dream, Discover!” πŸ™‚ That my friend is the purpose of life!

  29. @Nikhil – I was laughing at the vodafone call. Told my brother about it, he laughed out aloud too!

    The introspection bit, which I had skipped happily.. This is what I have to say about it:-

    “My life.. is an introspection! Every birthday does it to me.. & now, with age.. everyday, I am forced to think about it! Which explains the first page in my new notebook” πŸ˜‰

    & if it lasted less than 45 seconds.. dude! Give it one more shot!! πŸ™‚ The process will take a while.. at least like 5 minutes!!! πŸ˜€ Your life’s mission is worth that much of your time, ain’t it?

    & Please.. for the love of god tell me you are not introspecting about your job.. You gonna resign from your job, aren’t you? Oh Crap!!

  30. @ T
    Hehehe! It’s not nonsense, dude! πŸ˜€
    Makes perfect sense! πŸ˜€

    @La Vida Loca
    Hehehe! Thanks! πŸ˜€

    @Aravind
    Yeah man! I should do that! πŸ˜€

    @Ani
    Oh wow! Lovely words! Thanks!! πŸ˜€
    Right now, I feel like a paper sailboat caught in a storm with my rudder loose… πŸ˜€

    @Sandeep
    LOL… Yeah man! πŸ˜€
    Life sucks, doesn’t it?

    @Sakhi
    Hmmm… oscillation makes more sense, doesn’t it? πŸ˜€

    @Aparna
    Hahahaha!!! Don’t worry! Don’t worry! I am not quitting!! πŸ˜€

  31. @Nikhil
    I recently had this thought. Not the exact thing, but a similar thought on the whole. I was wondering what I achieved my whole life(I am 21 years old btw). And I could not stop myself from realizing that time has gone by so fast.

    Very distinguished conversation indeed. πŸ˜€ What kind of idiot wishes you a happy birthday and asks for you date of birth again? πŸ˜€ πŸ˜›

  32. not really where I wanted to be at this point in life.

    LOL …on this line…. thats nature… we are not satisfied with anything :DDD

    kewl… they are wishing you :DD

    and they were matching it that whether u knw numbers or nt ;))

  33. First belated birthday wishes. Second, its an acheivement for me always to scrolll this down to comment on your blog, as by the time, I get on here…your big list of fan following have already done their job πŸ™‚

    Most importantly, we all question ourselves at some point in time or the other – but the reason why we land up doing is that we are aware about our self and where we want to go…though we question ourselves, our answers lie within ourselves only. πŸ™‚

    Bet you had a good birthday and turned much more wiser πŸ™‚

  34. Well, Nikhil.. get ready for the long road and many more questions that await you around evry birthday!!! i’ve had couple more than you and let me tell you, i still have que’s that i had when i was your age and some more that have come along for the free ride, which remain unanswered…

    the one thing i have learnt is that TODAY i am doing what i love… living life my way[ much to the displeasure of my family], single[again, too many grumpy unhappy family members around] and HAPPPY.. i would not want to change anything… but i do know if i were asked a que on where life was headed about 2 yrs back i would be LOST, not knowing.. cos i was at a point where work was Shit, life was not so gr8 and well, i was just trudging along!!! πŸ˜€

    Enjoy the ride…. πŸ™‚

    btw, did your international calling facility get acitivated finally or not????? πŸ˜›

  35. A person who is younger than me is crying out aloud saying he is sad that he is old, which technically makes me older and more sad.
    sigh.
    😦

  36. The ‘Vodafone jerk’s brain should be preserved in a museum…
    One thing… I can’t really wait for my 17th birthday!!
    Seems so far away… πŸ˜›

    ~ Yeah.. sorry to makeyou feel miserable!!

    And I have to admit… Your blog’s very addictive!!
    Awesome stuff… πŸ˜€

  37. Ah I will write a post just like this three years later– thats when I turn 24! πŸ˜›

    Hopefully you will be where you want to be.. πŸ˜€
    You believe in Bangalore don’t you? πŸ˜‰

  38. Vodafon jerk is too gr8 …. they r all mechanical…I never get time or have attitude to think on β€œWhere is my life headed?” and β€œWhy am I here?” Anyway I shall ponder now after reading this.

  39. @Anniyan
    Hehehe!! Yeah! I think that bold idiot tells it all!

    @Chakoli
    Hmmm… I should send them a message asking them whether 5 comes after 6 or 7..!!?

    @Deeps
    Thanks so much! πŸ™‚
    But no, my birthday wasn’t any great… Just another day in office… Hehehe!
    And yes, most of the answers are inside us, but I guess I’m a bit too scared to delve into them!

    @Aaarti
    I’m happy for you! Great to know that you’re where you wanna be! I am sure I will too!
    And yes, the intl calling got activated!

    @Xylene
    LOL… Chillax maadi, sir! Lets get drunk and drown our respective sorrows! What say? Lets meet at TGIF?

    @Oxy
    Hahahahaha!! Exactly!!

    @Prarthana
    LOL.. yeah!!
    And thanks, I am glad you find it addictive! Trust me, this a good addiction to have, rather than cigarettes! No de-tox needed!

    @Balu
    I BELIEVE IN BANGALORE!! I BELIEVE IN BANGALORE!! I BELIEVE IN BANGALORE!!

    @Jemal Desai
    Welcome to MirrorCracked!
    Hehehe! Don’t waste your time questioning yourself!

    @Ani
    Ah!! Thats a sweet thought! Thanks

  40. Happy Birthday again.
    Don’t think too much about life. It just confuses you more. LIfe has a habit of falling into places on its own. So, just chill and give it some time.

  41. called hdfc phonebanking…here goes
    “hdfc: May I have your account no. Ms.A?
    me: xxxxxxxx
    hdfc: Thank you. May I know who I am talking to Ms.A?”

    Oh boy!!! These people!!!! πŸ™‚

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