Growing Up!

I’m halfway through my life and questioning my existence.

With my lifestyle, I’ll be a medical miracle if I live beyond 53 or 54 years of age. And on the twentieth of this month, barely ten days away, I will enter my twenty-eighth year. Almost half my life has gone by, and I’m sitting in the dark wondering what I’ve achieved so far and what I plan to do for the second half. I seem to be stuck at the intermission for the past few months.

Growing upWhen I look back on what I’ve done in my life so far, a lot of things stand out as being above average, but nothing stands out as being phenomenal. “Been there, done that,” seems to be motto I lived my life for the past twenty-eight years. Software programming, journalism, cancer research, authoring books, public relations, entrepreneur, serial dater and party freak. Now that I look back on those years, all I see is a lot of confusion. I have a goal in life and I am yet grappling with the tools needed to achieve that goal.

I think growing up sucks.

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Published by Nikhil

Nikhil Kumar lives in Bangalore with his wife and their stuffed dog. They are both advertising professionals and lead very exciting lives on the streets, dodging traffic. Their fridge is filled with cans of Diet Coke and their water heater doesn't work. He doesn't smoke (up) anymore.

10 thoughts on “Growing Up!

  1. Well-said. I am 27 as well, and I am trying to figure out how to achieve the goals I planned to reach by the time I am 30. They seemed to attainable when I made them, and despite steadily striving toward them, they are starting to feel more and more impossible. I can certainly relate.

  2. @NakedCarlyArt
    Welcome to MirrorCracked! πŸ™‚
    I peeked into your blog and it seems mighty interesting. Will give it a more detailed read tonight.
    And I hope you get there, trying to figure out what to do! As I said, I’m stuck at intermission! πŸ™‚

  3. I think it, the answer to the question “What have I achieved in my life till now?” depends on your thinking. If you are really satisfied, doing something what you like, then, you will have a feeling of “Yeah! I have achieved something…”. Do what you like the most and you will be satisfied, just my opinion…BTW why do you feel like you will be alive only for 53 or 54 years, Global warming? πŸ˜›

  4. It seriously does …but “serial dater” and “party freak” do add some substance to what you have done in your life … Strong points I must say .. Isn’t it?? πŸ˜› πŸ˜‰

  5. Nice post- makes one wonder I guess!

    But I think i see this in another light- growing up, through the trials and tribulations, heartbreak and hope, the love and anger, achievement and boredom, have made me who I am. And at the end of it, I just think I’m grateful for a set of of experiences in Life.

    I think that last bit of “American Beauty”- Where Kevin Spacey talks about his life, after he’s shot- sums it up quite nicely.

    I think the question you need to ask yourself is- through the set of experiences, have you (i) Made someone else life a little better, (ii) Given someone a reason to be smile (iii) Given someone some hope.

    I think the rest of it will fall into place after a while!

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